the ties that bind

Groom:
Yes, I'll love with all my heart
From now until death do us part,
And I will love her when we're rich,
And when we're broke and in a ditch,
And when we're fit, and when we're sick,
(Oh, CAN'T we get this finished quick?)
And I will love through good and bad,
And I will love when glad or sad,
And I will have, and I will hold,
And if I might now be so bold, I'll love her my entire life,
Yes, I WILL take her as my wife!

I give you this ring as a symbol of my love and faithfulness. As I place it on your finger, I commit my heart and soul to you. I ask you to wear this ring as a reminder of the vows we have spoken today, our wedding day.

so why didn't the pastor ask if he'd love me when my heart broke and hasn't healed......where is the God who listened to these words spoken 12 years ago?

good, bad, and ugly

You never realize how bad days can, have been until you actually have a good day. A brief moment in time when you think, “ok – things are ok – things are good…OKAY!” then the bad creeps back into the scene and dulls everything colored……like second day snow….there is the grey I see….my life seems like a really bad reality show!

Repeat-a-thon

I hit because I want to
I hit because I want to
I hit because I want to
I HIT BECAUSE I WANT TO
bitterness to bitterness
Bitterness to anger
Anger to Anger
ANGER to RAGE
RAGE to out of control

Crazy

She put the lime in the coconut,

she drank them both up

She put the lime in the coconut,

she called the doctor, woke him up...

Is it Black or White

is it the grey matter that makes the beauty of the eye's imagination?

what is significant about life

"the man who lives a significant life is marked out by four things: what he differs from, what he delights in, what he achieves and what he avoids."

Psalm 1

1. Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers.
2. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night.
3. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.
4. Not so the wicked! They are like chaff that the wind blows away.
5. Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment, nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.
6. For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous, but the way of the wicked will perish.
   

time

time, waiting, ticking noise that steadily reminds me that i'm waiting, quietly sitting, waiting, not very patiently, but waiting...waiting for the refresh button, waiting for the ding, waiting for an email to come but never does...i'm waiting for the email that probably won't come because it's not an email i should expect but hoped it would come before tomorrow....waiting

all i can do is wait -- all i can hope for is time

when is this lifetime up? when will it finally be over? who will really care if i'm just waiting

just a passing of time until what?

State of Mind

Happy-go-gether: “i am always struggling with trying to control the amount of drama i drag around with me everywhere... this need for constant reassurance, this need to be reminded on an hourly basis that it's ok, that i am not a raging pain-in-the-ass, that i am loved, that i am good enough... i try soooooo hard to step back and breathe and not make myself crazy and really not make people around me crazy...”

An alter ego i’ve created to look at not myself but someone else’s problems that relate to me, myself and I!

The DRAMA Queen

I have lived a terrible life, most of which has never happened… ~Mark Twain

Hypersensitivity Emotions

THE DRAMA QUEEN

downtime

Cry a river - Flood the sea
Cry a river over me
Take the bitter - With the sweet
And cry a river over me

Crying is perhaps the easiest and fastest way to release emotional pain, but unfortunately it has become socially unacceptable for both men and women to cry in public. We are already aware of all the social stigmas attached with those who cry in public (ie: weakness, in need of attention, etc.), but what most people are not aware of is the new scientific studies that actually prove tears caused from 'emotional crying' carry toxins not normally found in the tear created to simply moisten the eye.

Emotional tears contain three chemicals released by the body during stress: 1) Leucine-enkephalin — a mood-elevating and pain reducing endorphine 2) ACTH — a hormone considered to be the most reliable indicator of stress and 3) Prolactin — the hormone that regulates milk production in mammals.