Ramblings in search for significance even in this small world that I live in...How does every suppose to fit into the reality of every day living when you dream of the fairytell ending...were we so wrong to dream?
I feel I’m on the never-ending hamster wheel not getting anywhere but exhausted on top of trying to eat my paw off because it feels better….the whole body swelling thing going on.....................not ever wanting to get out of bed but do it because that’s the human thing to do
So it seems I can tel people I'm ok, I'm fine, I'm in control of my issues. I seem to be very believable...I seem to be normal...I SEEM TO IN CONTOL
there is a 15% chance that I will do what I shouldn't do! And against all logic I choose that thought/idea because I think I can get away with it! The only one stoping me is me! I tell on myself - they call it accountability...I think of it as chickin out and not having the guts to really do something!