The blues

Multi-shades of blue exsposed to the world...hidden in plain sight. If you pay attention, you can see how series I am! If not, I'm perfectly normal.

Choices

There are always choices: good, bad & stupid

good - breathing
bad - not caring
stupid - opening the safety box!

Dream On.....

Every time I look in the mirror
The past is gone

Sleep doesn't come soon enough and I lay on the bed and stare at the ceiling replaying the events of the day. Some regrets some good but sways analizing the triggers hoping I will control them better tomorrow.

Where am I? Who am I? Why should I care?

Tomorrow brings me to a funeral of someone I've never met. I hate funerals...it's an end. That person is done from this world. Nothing can ever bring him back. Sorrow Sadnees overflows my soul - I do not like this feeling and wish I didn't agree to go. There isn't away to look at this as good.

"Sing with me, sing for the year
sing for the laughter, sing for the tear
sing with me, if it's just for today
Maybe tomorrow, the good Lord will take you away
 
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On
Dream until your dreams come true
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On
Dream until your dream comes through
Dream On, Dream On, Dream On"

Nothing, Zero, Empty

I don't feel anything
I am just I am
numb
carelass

dark
empty
down
hollow shell of what I'm SUPOSED to be

where is God in all of this? When will I find? When will all of this mush be explained?

I'd say God help me but I haven't heard back from him in such a long time ago! I've stopped listening!

Not a Very HAPPY person

Happiness begins when selfishness end

Tears of joy or tears of blah

One minute it's a single tear of joy but then what follows are floods of sobs. Can't I do anything right? Why am I wrong so often? I struggle with being human. It's not easy for me to accept failure or admitt when I know I was wrong! Pride-anger-bitterness; emotional depression. How can I survive on more moment of disapointemnt? How do I let go of the past and worry about the future when it's today & now... Anger; Pride; bitterness

Across a crowded room

I hide myself within because I can!!! I really don't like people even ones I've been around. There must be something wrong with me!!