Thought

"God provides the power to change"

Interesting thought because that means I have to rely on him and i'm not sure I have enough trust that I'll have an answer. I believe in God but can I know which is the right belief?

ILU

Even after all this time
and all that we've been through
I still have trouble finding ways
to show my love for you

I wish I were the kind of man
who is good at thinking of
romantic little gestures
and poetic words of love

But the plain and simple truth is
I am an ordinary guy
who's happy you still love me
though sometimes I wonder why

Just know I really care for you
in my own quiet way
and in my heart
I give you roses every single day

Please! Please!

I want to go home! Where's the peace? I'm sooooooooooooo done! There isn't enough chocolate to be around rhe in laws

Shutting down

It's over! Done! Finished! Now I just want to sleep forever! No one cares.... No one will know the differance one way or another...... I'm getting sleepy

Disappiontment

I've been shutting down even more and my friends just are too busy to know that. My husband isn't noting much. I've put up my tree just in the last hour but it doesn't mean much.

iPhone entry

the broken of broke

xray's are over rated....esp if you don't want someone to find out your secret.....
i will not go

Customer Service

Who the fuck thought tracking phone calls was good customer service. Do they fucking understand it adds another 5 mins to a call. Plus I don't know EVERYTHING then who do I transfer them and and how do I track that! I think the fucking person who had this brillant idea answer the phone for one week or one day!!!!!

This may pit me at the truth that I can only answer phones and Not be available for special projects.

Again, what do the fuck!!!!! Ugghhggrrrrrrrrr I'm so mad my spinal fluid is boiling!

Vegging Out

▸ noun:  inactivity that is passive and monotonous, comparable to the inactivity of plant life ("Her weekend was spent in restless sleep"

how unworthy does time stand so still and yet passes days into months. One moment! One second! Things just changed! There is no going back. I can only reflect on the should-ofs...the maybes...I'm not perfect and the more I try, the less I become perfect. What's up with guilt and shame and why do I think in these terms? Justice and punishment! Who judges and what punishment?

Understand?

WHAT part of "I don't care" do you NOT understand?

Ode to Joy

Joyful, joyful, we adore Thee,
God of glory, Lord of love;
Hearts unfold like flowers before Thee,
opening to the sun above.
Melt the clouds of sin and sadness;
drive the dark of doubt away;
Giver of immortal gladness,
fill us with the light of day

20 hours have been fun, happy

now, I'm empty- like something just such up everything and left me standing. Afraid? A shamed. Alone!