OMG

It early Christmas morn and I'm in a whirlwind of the unknown. Is this going to be a great day? Is everyone going to play nice?

I want to go HOME but where is home? Is anyone there to greet? I feel left out somehow by my family.

Destructive Behavior

or could it be constructive...working through the process but still failing at sobriety.

I feel disappointed and insignificant

Up & Beyond

You know when things ate bad enough when you get to the point you don't care then suddenly someone who's like a sister get together and you find yourself.

How did I get this far off track and where am I going to change enough to find the way back or catch to where I could have been.

Skipping CR and not worrying who will cover. Am I phasing out of this ministry? What's the impacted?

Checking out seems to be an ok excuse and less responsibility.