Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Running in fumes

“I think…insignificantly"
“I feel…uncontrollable"
“I would like…to understand the why's"

Lost in a crowded room of thoughts - the good, the bad and really ugly!!!

Monday, February 27, 2012

Friday, February 24, 2012

Freaked Out

I don't know why I am crying in the middle of Cheddar's. Well not in the middle - in the back corner of the bar waiting for the to go order. ANXIETY heighten by the sensitivity of panic growing leaps and bounds.

I guess I've grown old and that doesn't matter!!!! I feel like I don't matter. I'm tired. I'm done. It doesn't matter does it?

No one knows me anymore because to them - I'm just fine! F.I.N.E.

Monday, February 20, 2012

Hopelessness

Your love never fails
It never gives up
It never runs out on me


How often I feel like I'm failing everyone who cares about me. I can't put my emotions into words that hold the meaning or thoughts or actions. I don't even understand myself how can't I explain that to someone else?

Sunday, February 19, 2012

thoughts...

The subtlety of despair and hopelessness lies in the difference between the two. One speaks of despair the other in frustration and anguish against all odds. A higher power intervenes at his own time – the straight path veers into the winding road that alludes all hope and comfort…the gone astray of one’s self and the care of anything sees know point in everything… resign all aspiration to live or face the unknown…

Friday, February 03, 2012

Down under

I feel like I'm drowning! Panic. Anxiety. The emotional dread. EMOTIONAL DREAD!

No outlet to vent hence "the end of the world"