It's Sunday

and I'm thinking of all the things I can think of to not going to work tomorrow. but I know I have to go. Reality really sucks. I guess I'm not alone...I'm sure there are lots of kids wishing for the same thing!!

Spring Break Blues

Ok...I know it's Saturday night and I have one more day before I have to resume what I call my life. I have had the last 5 weekdays off. It was nice to sleep in if you count waking up almost every hour til you just got up. It was ok to run erruns if you really felt like getting out in the rain or snow. I can't say that I have accomplished a lot this week. It goes by so fast. I could only dream of far away places as I sit in front of my TV (BTW I've watched more tv this week then I have probably all year!!!)...Staying home in "comfy clothes" with the cat and dog all so near. I think I just want to sit in my closet and hide...maybe Monday won't come so soon!

"Something is rotten in Tulsa...."

From the bananas to cantalope then of course there the mistry meat that I'm not sure when I fixed it. The cottage cheese is growing something green an to top it off is a half eatten stale sandwich....yes it's Friday night and I'm cleaning out the frig. there is a lot of things I need to clean out. I also changed the kitty liter which it was easier then scooping!! Then there is the car. Lots of "stuff" in the car that's not quite junks/trash but I'm not sure where it fits in the house. I sill keep something in there that I guess I should get rid of but haven't figured out what I want to do with it yet. As far as I know, there is nothig growing in the car!

Eighty/Twenty

Ok...I've stolen this concept from another blog but I just have to comment.

“A wife, if she is very generous, may allow that her husband lives up toperhaps eighty percent of her expectations. There is always the other twenty percent that she would like to change, and she may chip away at it for the whole of their married life without reducing it by very much. She may, on the other hand, simply decide to enjoy the eighty percent, and both of them will be happy.” Elizabeth Elliott

You know how many times I have just picked at the twenty percent of what I don't like about my husband but you know, this morning I found the 80% reasons why I married this man and you know, that makes me happy! I don't type that lightly.

How Great is....

You know the weather has been werid here in Oklahoma. We were supposed to get this big storm of rain and it rain just enough to get my car dirty again. This has happened more than one time. But you know today started out looking pretty bleak and almost down right cold for the light sweater I was wearing without a coat! By lunch time...it was a very nice day and you know it was nice to be out in the sunshine! There are reasons far more to explain then there is time...but for lunch I sat in my car just enjoying the time with a friend on the phone. (yes I have friends...I just don't talk about them!) Going back into the building made the rest of the day better....so this turned out to be a good day even though I had things not quite work they way it was supposed too... I was ok with that....plus the ativan helped!

Home on the Range

Well today was definitely a Monday and I could swear it must be a full moon but then again I know it's not. I have been really busy at work and had to go to another campus this afternoon. Thought there would be lots of traffic but I think it was ok and I got home about normal time.

So what am I doing tonight? Simple...worring about tomorrow. I know that's not getting me anywhere but I just hoping that I've made the plans and everything sticks to the plan. I really think work will be ok...that's not making me as anxious as meeting with I don't know what to call her but she's has control of whether I keep my part-time job or not.

My sponsor has been wanting me to do a step nine with her since December but I didn't think it was that big of a deal. I guess I was wrong and that's why I haven't been put on the schedule. I found that out on Friday. I know I had a lot of attitude with her and it's that female thing of not really getting along. I should of been more observant but I think I let my pride get in the way of her trying to teach me. Plus for some reason she thinks I can lift. I don't think I've ever said that but I do know I'm uncomfortable with lifting the cot into the amblance. I think that just comes with more experience. Which is what I want. I want to have more field experience then just the industrial setting. I really like doing it and I think it's good for me to get out. (I seem to have more confidence when working this job) I hope I can make her see how much I really want to do this and that she would give me a second chance.

Rain

You know we need rain so bad...and the weathermen had said we'd get rain...I think there was a sprinkle just enought to get things wet....oh how we need more rain. Rain drops, on my windsheild cause too problems...I can see sort of and hoping I don't have to use the wipers. There's a streak that appears because there is not enough rain to really wipe the windsheild. Then there is the little thingings where the windshelid wiper fluid...mine are not quite working the way they should...one goes off the other side of the windsheild and the other is a little bit a of a whimper that might make it to the windsheild.

Fire Department Free

Yeah!!! no visits by the fire department made this day a normal day in my life....is anything ever normal in my life? It's like grocery shopping after work today...they say you shouldn't go into a store hungry...I don't think I was hungry but I was craving...something sweet...no...something salty...I'm being from the land of the yankees....I go for the salt and vinger potato chips! so as I fix taco's for my husband...I'm eatting potato chips....not a very healthy dinner! But it stopped the craving...see life isn't normal in my life! ha