Friday start out with wishing I could just continue to sleep under the covers…but I made myself get up…had to. There was so much going at work that I needed to be at my desk for office coverage. It really didn’t start out that bad. Had the normal “chat” with Leo about what he schedule was and what he needed me to do for him today and heads up for next week. That seems to work better for us.
9:30 – (I’m only half way through attendance) LEO went out to the share drive and was upset that he couldn’t find a file (the file didn’t exists but that’s beside the point). After all the work I did on organizing this drive…he complained that there was soooo many empty folders – he didn’t think the instructors would be able to find stuff especially when there wasn’t any files in folders (I just set it up…I was going to move them into the correct folder as we updated the file from last year)
He said not to take this personal. PERSONAL? It was personal…I can’t believe he just looked at the setup and didn’t like it. Not only did he approve it last May but I rolled it out to the instructors in August!! But fine, he’s the person I support (I don’t know what to call him…I just support him as an assistant/secretary. I report to the office manager not him. PERSONAL – as he continued to talk how and why he didn’t like it but he would tell me what I needed to do (basically start all over). I kept telling myself, “DON’T OPEN YOUR MOUTH…KEEP IT INSIDE…DON’T TELL HIM WHAT YOU REALLY THINK ABOUT IT!!) The harder I tried not to tear up the more that became very evident. As soon as he finally explained his point of view…I just kept saying “OK”. Finally, he let me out of his office…I had to get out…luckily my co-worker was in the office to cover it. I went into the conference room and had a hard cry…I wanted to crawl under the table and hide…how small can I become. I even used my cell phone to my co-worker to see if he had left the office yet!! After about 15 minutes I knew I had to go back to my desk. Oh how much my eyes hurt from crying. I tried to be cordially and act like nothing happened. My co-worker didn’t say anything – I’m not sure if she knew what to say….Leo finally left about 15 minutes later and I finished attendance trying not to make eye contact with as few people as possible. 30 minutes til lunch!!
Took forever but my lunch hour finally was there…I don’t’ think I ever got out that building so fast. Went to Quiktrip and got a tea and sandwich but I knew I wasn’t going to eat it…the tears were already flowing. Went to the church land and sat under a tree and had another hard cry…with no one around the sobs where pretty loud. The next 45 minutes I just completely lost it. I had to go back to work…coverage thing again…it was a HAD. I don’t know how well I pretended…but I did it and left as fast as 4:00 o’clock came!
After looking for pictures for a PowerPoint presentation…I found this cartoon that said it ALL!!
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