Breathing is the Essentials of all LIFE

celebrate recovery large group flowing into my small group which in turn lead to the "feeling" of the walls moving in thus created a vast response of my adrenaline to kick in and caused the sensation of my alveolies to strangle the air effecting my control of breathing sending a extreme rush of blood pulsating throughout the vein network making me perspire and flush

or in other words --- PANIC and the need to isolate into car

(i just got home -- didn't feel i could drive until i was steady enough to be safe)

life sucks even when you are attempting to do the right things

Stay off CRACK?

"Walking on the Sun" by Smash Mouth

It ain't no joke I'd like to buy the world a toke And teach the world to sing in perfect harmony And teach the world to snuff the fires and the liars Hey I know it's just a song but it's spice for the recipe This is a love attack I know it went out but it's back It's just like any fad retracts before impact And it's just like fashion it's a passion for the with it and hip If ya got the goods they'll come and buy it just to stay in The clique (CHORUS): So don't delay act now supplies are running out Allow, if you're still alive, six to eight years to arrive And if you follow there may be a tomorrow But if the offer is shun you might as well be walking on the sun Twenty five years ago they spoke out and they broke out Of depression and oppression and together they toked And they folked out with guitars around a bon fire Just singin' and clappin' man what the hell happened Some were spell bound some were hell bound Some they fell down and some got back up and Fought back 'gainst the melt down And their kids are hippie chicks and hypocrites Because fashion is smashin' the true meaning of it (CHORUS): So don't delay act now supplies are running out Allow, if you're still alive, six to eight years to arrive And if you follow there may be a
tomorrow But if the offer is shun you might as well be walking on the sun It ain't no joke when mama's handkerchief is soaked With her tears because her baby's life has been revoked The bond is broke up so choke up and focus on the close up Mr. Wizard can't perform no god like hocus pocus So don't sit back, kick back and watch the world get bushwhacked News at 10:00 your neighborhood is under attack Put away the crack before the crack puts you away You got to be there when your babies are old enough to relate(CHORUS): So don't delay act now supplies are running out Allow, if you're still alive, six to eight years to arrive And if you follow there may be a tomorrow But if the offer is shun you might as well be walking on the sun Might as well be walking on the sun...Might as well be walking on the sun... Might as well be walking on the sun... Might as well be walking on the sun...

"I think I LOVE U"

Hey, I think I love you so what am I so afraid of
I'm afraid that I'm not sure of
a love there is no cure for
I think I love you isn't that what life is made of
Though it worries me to say I never felt this way

Pet Rights - Home Invasion of Visitors

By Harvey Tobkes

1. They live here... You don’t.

2. If you don’t want their hair on your clothes, stay off the furniture.
(That’s why they call it "fur"niture.)

3. I like my pets a lot better than I like most people.

Dogs and cats are better than kids because they:
1. Eat less
2. Don’t ask for money all the time
3 Are easier to train
4. Normally come when called
5. Never ask to drive the car
6. Don’t hang out with drug-using friends
7. Don’t smoke or drink
8. Don’t have to buy the latest fashions
9. Don’t want to wear your clothes
10. Don’t need gazillion dollars for college, and…
11. If they get pregnant, you can sell their children.

Dora-In-The-BOX

PANIC -- NO AIR

BREATH IN - HOLD, ok

BREATH OUT -- slowly (repeat for the next 20 years)

20th Anniversary of being twenty years old....

"Hi, my name is Dora and i'm a 40something now...." "Hi Dora...Thanks for sharing and welcome to your 40's...)

• At 10, I thought I was "Johnny's next girlfriend and way cool paramedic partner"
  
• At 20, I wasn't legal to drink (but had been before but was in a state that didn't have a grandfather clause)
  
• At 30, I had a hard time adjusting to being a responsible adult. Just married, new job, rent, bills, and another person to have to think about -- and the expectation of "cinderella" enchantment. Thus became my co-dependancy tendencies one a more personal level.
  
• At 40, I can't believe I am old...older sounds better but not much

So I am 40, 1 day, and 15 hours older....I did see my shadow which I am hoping means 6 more weeks of winter (snow days are considered a bonus to me). At 10, I never imagine what 40 was or what I would be...I do wonder though what it will be like when it is my 40th anniversary of being twenty years old: February 2nd, 2027

I am for sure I will be still working -- for that matter, I cannot imagine ever retiring. I know I will always need the income as long as I can stay "healthy"...now there lies the key to celebrating this occasion in 2027.

HEALTHY first means the "body" -- I will definitely need some tuck here and there...wear & tear. I never was one big one eating the latest "healthy meals" choices...but since my surgery, eating has really depended on what I can tolerate to eat and portions. I am hoping I can continue to keep my portion controls in place -- I don't ever want to gain the weight back.

Mentally I think will be the deciding factor of EVERYTHING and all involved...can I recover enought to be here for the twenty years it will take until 2027?

Playing Nicely with Others

Not that it matters to anyone but I thought or didn't think i could play too...blog version of "TAG YOU'RE IT"

Here are the Book meme rules:

1. Grab the book closest to you.
2. Open to page 123; go down to the fourth sentence.
3. Post the text of the following three sentences.
4. Name the author and book title.
5. Tag three people to do the same.
   (don't think I am brave enough to tag anyone...)

But in the scope of all, I have 3 books within the same reach...depending on the mood I am in as to which one I read...so here is the book on the bottom for there must be a reason why I haven't picked this book....middle, & top.....

The third type of hidden issue involves recognition. Are your activities and accomplishments appreciated by your partner? Although caring issues involve concerns about being cared for or loved, recognition issuesare more about feeling valued by your partner for who you are and what you do.

A Lasting Promise: A Christian Guide to Fighting for Your Marriage
(Stanley, Trathen, McCain, & Bryan)

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(less than 100 pgs so I went to pg 23)
Taking steps of faith and being convicted by your own Selfishness and fears is both challenging and part of the maturation process. You grow and mature by taking steps of faith, testing God to do what He has written. Changing your priorites to God's is hard.

The Genesis Process: for Change Groups
Book 1, Individual Workbook (Michael Dye)

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After surveying the two groups, James cam away surprisingly impressed with the morbid-minded. He fully understood the appeal of the optimists: they discounted or denied evil, sickness, and death. But their faith did not account for all the facts, he concluded. At least the evangelicals described a world that actually existed, one riddled with sin and suffering.

RUMORS of another world: What on Earth are we Missing? (Philip Yancey)