so it seems again i have no life............i'm reduced to tears................
and wondering why my husband (the male race) is a complete jerk!
it hasn't been a great two weeks anyways....i'm limping home after work and want to just crawl into bed and die. But......my husband has STARTED his new way of eating (whatEVER)....it's only been 4 days....and i am already becoming the can't have person......or he's the extreme man who won't even eat what he can..........
Then there is the delimia that i will be having surgery in the next few weeks, like he's going to stay on the diet........if i don't fix he pouts........
i wanted pizza tonight......he made me feel pretty guilty and threw a small tantrum saying he won't eat anything tonight will just starve........................UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! With that guilt....how can i stay so cuddled up in my blankets ready to just sleep away into the morning? How is it my JOB to keep him on this diet, prepare the food.....when I AM DOING ALL THE WORK........i want him to lose some weight...it will be more healthy for him.....but if he doesn't take any ownership.....this is just going to be a diet and not a life style change in eating........the thing is, i SOOOO understand and i feel for me, my gastric bypass was the best thing i've ever done to help with this struggle with food.....
this comes back to I HAVE NO LIFE OF MY OWN.......................................................i'm losing friends or people i can talk to................i'm not even sure if i've burn my bridges with my counselor, sponsor and husband.........................
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