SHEER PANIC
Haven’t had to bolt right out in while but tonight proved different. At a normal Saturday night meeting, I was already “anxious”…..then there’s change….CHANGE…it’s so unpredictable and it’s hard to adjust to….
But it’s been coming on like that for the last couple of weeks. In a nano-second, I’ve gone from wanting to run a stop sign with a MACK truck in traffic to FREAKING out tonight and walking aimlessly down Sheridan. Step by step and one foot forward. I was in my own little world that seems to be closing all around me. I didn’t care I was barefoot. I was cold physically and emotionally……..WONDERING around until a truck honked and the guy asked me if I was working….WORKING – who me?
walk,walk,WALK as each step takes me further and further away….away from friends, away from God…away from EVERYTHING except my mind.
How can you escape from your mind? I DON'T WANT TO BE ME ANY MORE...........I JUST WANT IT OVER....FINISH...DONE!
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