happy pills?

i just want to not feel much any more -- trying hard to care and show that i care and all i get is the opposite -- i can't win anymore, i can't make someone else HAPPY if i can't be happy myself! in the dark reccesses of the bathroom cabinet or lock box you can find things to make you forget!

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