Saturday, April 10, 2010

Fade into black

It's been a werid week and all started with one phone call. One call from someone I haven't heard in over 8 months.

Life seems to have it's little jokes. On every moment is surreal to drama. Emotional drama is what I see as my struggle with right now. Not to be absorbed into drama that isn't really mine. I took a step back and found safety in my closet. Curled up like a cat in a ball. Comfort Safe. Protected.

Hitting and tracking - tracking with hitting. Everything has a reason to hit. Me and
My environment. My thoughts. My life. My hope. My weakness. My non ability to avoid emotional drain.

DRAMA - even if I'm not creating it - I still find it and let it have it's way.

Why do I have to deal with how everyone interacts. Sometimes I wonder if I really a Good person??? Or am I just a sinner and no hope!

The closet calls!!!!!!!

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