Knock cube!!

Anxiety...to the nth degree What was a 180 degree day compared to last Sunday left me in just the same emotional wreck...I'm so exhusted and I haven't done much today. I know it's because I can't sleep well enough. I'm waiting up almost every hour and I just can seem to get that deep sleep feeling when I wake up to get up. This of course sets the day...large group of people...I'm hot one minute and cold the next. Too many people sitting behind me....all I can do to calm myself is breathe...I leave the first service and think I can't do the next...headed home and really just wanted to climb back into bed and hide under the covers even if I can't sleep....but once home...I realize that's not a healthy choice so I make myself go to the 2nd service. Perry...what a christ centered man. A quite intervert preacher....but he words pack a might punch. I don't think he knows what to say to help or what to do when I ask him questions. But I know he's there and I know he is concern for me. 2nd service...less people but still the anxiety exisits...breathe...but I don't make it through the entire service. I leave during the last part of the sermon...I know Perry notices...maybe he'll contact me later this week or actually respond to one of my many emails...thus the walls cave in and I sucome to hiding under the covers for 2 hours before responding to my husband's needs for dinner. My only purpose for the day. It's only 8 and I can't even pray for the meds to take over since they are not as many...I'm getting back to the point where I just want some sleep....but to sleep means I can't function in my world...but how and I to function in this same world without sleep?