Well, its another typical Sunday and I'm in the veggitated mode...just making it through today and trying not to worry about tomorrow. My anxiety is high but I'm not around anyone to cause it. I'm living in the aftermath of the pass week...how can I just let it go and not dwell. The tension in my neck, shoulders and even jaw are so tight -- if only I could relax. I'm afraid of fear or fear is the controler...I'm afraid of being out of control...constent reminding myself to "talk my way through" the problem/situtation. I'm afraid of turning to God...afraid of punsihment. I do a good job at punishing myself.
Driving the "TRUCK" has been a stress relief. Some would think it would cause more stress...but it's actually pretty fun. I just imagine I'm driving a limo and the comfort of my riders is top priority. Seems to be working well with my partners. But mostly I have to give the credit to my dad for teaching me how to drive in the first place. I think he'd be proud to know I'm driving an ambulance around Oklahoma. It's still a new adventure for me.
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