Which is which....does anxiety produce panic or panic produce anxiety? So here's a logical thought...worry produces stress which leads to anxiety when left alone causes a panic reaction...So therefore add in the black & white proccessing and you have complete illrational thoughts going through your mind at a 100 miles a minute (well, maybe not that fast, but I think you get the point!)
My boss threw another curve ball and said that he's a "macro" manager and when he says he wants his files done...he doesn't care how I do it as long as I have rational and it's organized. Ok...I've been over "mirco" managed that my brain isn't as trusting as my boss thinks I can do besides it's a lot hard to just "easy on" by with work when you have an actual say in the work. How can there be no right or wrong way to do files? That's hard for me to judge on how I'm doing. I am so used to having to "find" what is expected and then do it that way. As my pulse races and my breathing is shallow, I'm now wondering if the last 4 hours of work was profitable, did I do it right...what will he say tomorrow, will he even notice? Creating the anxiety -- can I break the cycle?
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