"By night on my bed I sought him whom my soul loveth: I sought him, but I found him not." For she kept saying, If I only touch His garments, I shall be restored..." (Song of Songs 3:1 KJV, Mark 5:28 Amp)"If only I could touch his garments..."
What was it like for the woman to touch the garments of Christ…her faith in who Jesus was, her belief that he is who he said he was, and the trust that she had when all hope from the doctors was exhausted? The fact that in a crowd, Jesus knew he was touch in the slightest contact …Can that miracle happen today…where is this “garment” to reach out and touch…would anyone notice?
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to
Christ.” 2COR 10:5
“take captive every thought”…It seems that the thoughts have taken me captive. I know it’s the feelings that are there that are driven by the thoughts. I live in the moment on feelings. Outbursts of tears and uncontrollable crying seem an every day occurrence.
"emotional tears" are psychologically caused…The protein concentration of emotional tears was 24% greater than irritant tears. The complex proteins in emotional tears were those involved in the human stress response…tears performed a sort of physical catharsis, expelling toxins from the body.
I used to have the optimism of there is a big world out there and how I can play a part in it…but today I’m afraid of the next moment, afraid of tomorrows to come, dreading what is to come. I would rather stay inside, safe, secured. When I do adventure out, I cry. I feel I am falling out of control, am I loosing my mind? Where do I stand – emotionally drained. I do life out of duty.
"Only those who are fit to live do not fear to die. And none are fit to die who have shrunk from the joy of life and the duty of life. Both life and death are parts of the same great adventure." Theodore Roosevelt
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