Is it FRIDAY yet? Skating on thin ice!

Monday was pretty ugly. Before many were in the office...Leo and I had a pretty good shouting "discussion" with it ending in "do it anyways, I don't care what you think!!'"

Well that really sucked!! All morning, while he was in and out of his office (still on campus passed 9) it was eye contact only! I knew he had gone to the director's office. Shortly after he left, I got pulled in to my office manager's area (closed door) and she wanted to hear myside of the story which all this mess started out last Wednesday. By the time she was done with me it was lunch time...I was really glad because I was about to burst!!! I barely made it out to the car before crying...I don't know why I can't get alone with this guy. I get so frustrated because I seem to not do a lot of things for him right! (he defines the right)....

I went out and sat at a bench in the middle of a field (birds, wind, tall grass, bugs, ticks) crying for the next hour. I did try to call people for support but I only got voice mails.

Surprisingly, I went back to work. I knew there was going to be another meeting either that day or the next...it was at 3:00 on Monday in the director's office. They went over a lot about trusting that I'll so something, communicating what I have done and haven't, and the biggest was: CHANGE THE BAD ATTITUDE. The director also changed my hours from 7:30 to 7:00-4:00 so that Leo and I can have an hour (7-8) to get everything planned out for that day and the week ahead.....I'M NOT A MORNING PERSON and Leo is...he's ready to go when I get there. The rest of this week has actually worked out ok but he was out of the office too and I had some long term tasks to accomplish!

This is the first week of my two week trail period...I think if things aren't any better between Leo and I....I would lose my job!!!

Some might say that would be a good thing...but it would be a scary thing to have happen and to look for another job with benefits....I still have a lot of health issues to face....and without insurance...I would have to stop all meds and dr. appt.