Numbers Squared!

Did you know there are about 286 beans in a cup....1716 in a pound...8580 in 5 lbs....and I guess I could go on and on...but I'm losing interest in counting beans. I counted 213 cars I passed on the highway until that got boring...that leads me back to counting the one thing I've been trying to avoid. But you know I don't feel complete unless it's done. And it has to be done a certain way or I have to start all over and recount. Why can't I let it go? Why does it cause such great anxiety before I've even started? I know it's wrong therefore I must be the crazy one...no one normal would do this! I have to know to have any peace...ahhhhh is there such a place?