Well the big day arrived and I thought I was prepared for this review meeting. It did take me by surprise. There were alot of mobo jumbo corporate phases that were hard to tell what they ment or were asking. Overall, I guess I had an A (93% ranking) for the year. It's werid to be 39 and be on a grading scale for performance review. I had 2 A+, about 10 A's, and 4 B/C. They didn't distingushied which was a B and which was a C. The only thing I was marked down for was attitude. It wasn't totally unsatisfactory but it was basically saying I wasn't a very positive attitude in dealing with my co-workers, students, & customers.
Attitude: a complex mental state involving beliefs and feelings and values and dispositions to act in certain ways
I think mental status had a lot to do with everything and emotional reactions to certian things wasn't as professional as it should have been.
Even though it was a positive outcome, I still feel like I really was that good in my performance this year. Since I wasn't "critisied" I just feel like I should be. I know I'm being harder on myself but I still think some of it should of had a consequences. Like there should of been more B/C's then A's. I know that's the self punishing side of my black and white thinking showing through. Now I just have to deal with it so that I don't act on my impulsive thoughts.
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