Waves of sounds, Waves of words, Waves of guilt, Wave of shame, Waves of anger, waves of sin, waves of thoughts....I feel so seasick. The little dingy is just big enough for me to sit but the water keeps coming in as I try to bail it out. The rage is all around. I don't know whats right or whats wrong. what I believe, I question. Ahhhhh all I need is some sugar....that calms me down...or does it just put me in a comatosed state where I don't care anymore. Do I care? I must or I wouldn't be here.
At this time is the point where, it is better for me to just go to bed and try not to deal with this imagination of distructive thoughts...but do I carry them into my dreams...yes. There just seems like not where to turn. I've exhusted all the support around that if I crack agian...I just don't know what will happen.
Is it possible to put it all back together again? To really be normal?
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