Denial

You know if you’ve read any of my pervious blogs that I have faced some of my denial but you know it’s still there. I feel like I’m trying to balance reality with my own reality. See Sawing back and forth from one extreme to another. I think I’m getting better. I don’t think I’m as hopeless as I could be. I’m more into living out what’s given. I still want to hide and not face reality. I don’t want the responsibility that sometimes comes with being a grown adult. My black and white thinking is still around. I hold so much to either good or bad and if it’s not one or the other then it’s automatically bad. My co-workers have been telling me about how I’ve been the last 3 months and comparing it to the last 6 weeks. They have seen a big change but I’m not sure what I’ve changed. I slowing think the fog is lifting. I’m just afraid of slipping…and if I’m in denial that I am!