Red toe nail color......

My one rebellion that I've kept up for a long time around. It's what a girl wants to see in her new shoes. Ok what does this all matter to me and the pervospity....is a black and white thing croping back inot the picture?? Right now it all seems so gray and dirty that this is no clear picture or direction around. I need a clearer plan....I just can't see a way out that would not hurt!! Am I sane or am I insane? I guess at least I'm still asking?