A flood of Drought...

on the outside it's dry and hot but on the inside it's drenched and pruened...when will this ever end. Is it tijme enough or late enough to take my meds and just go to sleep. That's all I want to do...is sleep but then is that really a good option. When I am asleep it's not the greatest thing either. Weird dreams...have I lost myself. The hopelessness is so emptyness. How are you supposed to fill the wholes? There's no book or class that answers all the questions. Living for the next dose so that I have to play by their rules or else..