I don't know about that phase. It's been 24 hours with about 10 words spoken and about 5000 more words in mind that I should say. We went to the movies this morning. It was a sad story and it reminds me of a true story. "The end of the Spear" It wasn't a gory or scary movie which we tend to watch. But all emotions were there as a boy explained why he was back to the jungle he once lived. I like one of the last lines..."I took your father with my spear....and the son said "my father gave his life.." Makes the gift a willing participant. These 5 men knew they were going into a jungle with tribes that would kill them before knowing why. But 2 generations later, the families are one and open to trust.
I'm deafened by the silence. I could of grew up in silence but I was too much of an extervert. I love noise for the sake of noise. Maybe that's why it is so hard to understand how 10 words is communication. Last weekend, I went to Dallas to watch my sister get her education hood for her honors master's degree. (she was always the smart one in our family) I got to spend time with my mom (of course you can't hide things from your mother) There was nosie. There was lots of verbal communication.
After all that was said; My mom emailed me back on Monday with it was a great weekend but she got to see the small side of me when I'm realy out of it...she wrote in her email "I just want my little girl back" So it goes back to the silence...is it drug induced or just trying to keep everything together. I have to be strong. I have to believe I can do this. That's a whole other blog.
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