doesn't sound so good but it sure taste good. Guess I can be glad I haven't lost the love of food....haha Not to mention I had my quota for bananas already. Guess that's eatting healthy somewhat...(have to get some chocolate every now and then!)
Good things that happen today: I did some filing that took up most of my morning and then I was in an outlook class (boring) that took up most of the afternoon. I still haven't met my boss but he's promising to come in tomorrow and I guess will start there. Showed my new mounting with my wedding set. Since I've lost so much weight I had to get my rings resized. I went from a 11 to a 7 1/2. It is one of those things that I've been meaning to do and saved to do I just never got around to doing it. So for some reason I just had to do it last Saturday and I got my ring back this past Saturday. I really like it. I'm glad I did it even though it was a spontanous decision.
Not so good things: I kind of had an anxiety fit while sitting in class today. Had to get up and leave and come back I was better but it was a lot to take especially since it was so boring. (I think I knew more about outlook then the instructor!) Even though I'm having much better days I'm still doing something very very wrong and out of control. I can't seem to get it back under control no matter what I do...(well that's not true...I could give something up that would make it less convienient but I've even found a way around that too!) Does that mean I can't stop? Does that mean I don't want to stop? What is my real motive for continuing to do this? Do I really belong around people? Do I really belong anywhere/somewhere? I feel so lost but I'm not sure I want to be found or what I'll find is any better! I'm thinking I'm going to go hide in my closet with the door closed...
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