Red Lights...

As I was driving home from work and then the bank/resturant...I ran at least 3 red lights. Mind you I didn't do it on purpose, I just was going too fast in time to stop. OK two were pink but one was definitely red. As I look back in my rear view mirror to see if I'd been caught by a police car, I thanked God that I made it through. I then ventured out one more time to do a strawberry run (for short cake desserts) at 9:00pm. This time I came through the intersection where I really ran the red light and there was a major accident involving at least 3 cars. It was bad. If someone a passenger in one of the cars I seriously doubt they made it just by looking at the damage car. That could of been me. I was being so wreckless earlier, it hit me that I could have cause something this bad by just running a red light. How I thought at that moment was if it was me, I hoped it would of killed me because I wouldn't want to see how bad I hurt other people with my carelessness. Now I'm doing the what if senarios and I just needed to remind myself that it didn't happened like that; that everything was ok and that God for some reason was watching out for me. Watching out for me. You mean I'm not an exception to his love? It goes back to my previous posting...all or nothing. God loves all and sometimes I feel like a nothing.