Crushing Sensation...

I feel my heart is squeezing every ounce of blood. Anxiety or panic...over what is the next question. But for now I'll live in this moment. I just wish I could fast forward and get to the point where I don't have anxiety or panic feelings. I'm glad it's the beginning of Spring Break but I really don't have big plans so that's a little disappointing. I know I have to stop something but I don't want to until it's damaged. I really ready for it to be crushed or broken and get on. Mental that's what I've done in the past to get through it and stop for at least a while. But I also know that is so wrong in thinking and will it really stop or will I start somewhere/something else.