Parenting...hmmm

Makes me wonder what kind of parent I would be. I hoped to have the same relationship that I have with my mom but then again...she doesn't know everything that's going on in my life. That would be a bad thing. I think she would be disappointed. I had someone ask me today if I thought I could be a parent. I think wanting a child so bad I'd do anything lets me know how much love I would have to give...but and there's always a but...am I ready to have a child...not tomorrow if I'm honest. I would want to have a health environment to rasie a child. That isn't saying I'm in a bad environment but it's recognizing that things could be better. I have more of a hang up the fact that there are so many young adults (teenagers) having babies and I can't. It's just not fair and I really wished God would change it. There I said what I've been saying over and over in my head for the last 5 years. People don't realize how hard Mother's Day is for me. It's hard not to think one day I would have a child. It's part of the fairytale fantasy that hasn't materialized. It's just not fair. DAY SEVEN but tempted.