Ceiling Lights

Do you ever just wonder staring into your ceiling fan lights? I have an interesting lights. There not that bright but it's in a crystal globe that reflex light into different directions across the ceiling. You can see if you look closely enough the different colors. Ok So what is color...blues melting into pinks, oranges into yellows, greens turning back into blues...is perception color? Why don't we think of just black and white. Is color life? Is living in color happiness? Because God made light, he gave color for experiences. One of my tasks today is to take all my pain meds out of my cabinet and give to my sponsor. Why...maybe as a precaution, I don't know but I came close to taking more then I needed to think about. I know I'm the one in control...how does taking pills but me in control? It's the same with food. I have the ability now to decided what, when, where I eat whether it be food, liquids, or pain pills. Its my choice. Its' my color. If I'm forgiven for everything I've done in the past, present, & future thereby maybe I'm complete with this life and time to move on...but wait...I'm not done...I still love too many things in this life to give in to that temptation. Is that a sign of hope out of all this hopelessness? What is the color of hope? "WHATEVERSO IS GOOD...THINK ON THESE THINGS"