Sunshine

Hmmm they say this is the first day in nine days since the sun has shine...does that make a mood different. I don't know...it did seem a little different today but then again it was the first day I've been out of the house in 4 days. A part of me is yearning for more sun...maybe tomorrow will shed some more light. I wonder why I really want to just hide under the covers and watch someone else live life. That doesn't seem much like fun. But then there's another part of me that wants to be around people and the more the merrier. I'm going to be sitting around the house a lot more then I want while I recover from surgery. It's only been a week and I still have 8 more to go. How am I ever going to live through this when I'm already sad. But that's not forever is it? Are we ever going to be happy with life or is it that I'm not happy with who I am? So who am I? Maybe that's the direction to go tomorrow! For now, I'll be content to be who I am at this moment and be glad that I can still breath, hear, smell, taste, & touch things of this world for what they exsits to me at this time.