i will not email...i WILL not email...

ok...I gave in and emailed...but was it the right person? Ok there is probably more then one person I should email. But I will hold firm and not spread myself open out there for too many to see. It's one thing to hide behind a blog without comments...it's another when that person already knows you. Ha Am I making any sense or do you feel I'm being to coy? Ok...now I'm asking myself questions. Makes you wonder if all the drugs I'm taking are really working to help me think more clearly. At least for today, I don't feel hopeless or helpless but I do feel sad, anxious, & tired. Part of that has to be the croopy cough I've been nursing for the last 2 days the other for pms/hormones. Ahh, Sunday...day of rest...ok..I'm tired of being home. I need to get back to work if not for the money but for my sanity. Although, I have a lot on my plate for this week. Monday, meeting at school, step study; Tuesday, class at night; Wednesday, choir practice (that is if I decided to do this...it's putting myself out there again); Thursday, counselor & night class; Saturday, Celebrate Recovery Mtg. My husband is going to think I don't want to be around him this week. I'm thinking of signing us up for a Marriage Weekend. Not sure what his response will be but I just have to present it in a positive way. I think he'd think I'm trying to change his behavior when in reality...I think its more of my behavior I should be wanting to change.