Never alone?

I waited for you today But you didn't show No no. I needed you today So where did you go? You told me to call Said you'd be there And though I haven't seen you Are you still there? I cried out with no reply And I can't feel you by my side So I'll hold tight to what I know You're here and I'm never alone And though I cannot see you And I can't explain why Such a deep reassurance You've placed in my life. We cannot separate 'Cause you're part of me. And though you're invisible I'll trust the unseen. BarlowGirl

My heart is racing tonight...Anxious? Nerves? Wired? Maybe...I don't know what's my problem except I'm thinking way too much and have too much time on my hands. Time...alone...by myself! I feel isolated but hate being in a crowd but want to belong to a group, accepted for who I am not who I perceived to be in public. How do you fight the needs, wants, urges? I turn to people but there is no one standing, I turn to myself...makes me worse, I turn to God...and somedays it seems he's not there but is he just because I can't see him or feel him. Why do I have such emotions? Father? Are you there? Can I just sit in your lap, please?