Hi, don't know who you are or why I'm starting this blog. It seems a good place to start. Maybe it's for my own sanity that if I can just reason with myself I can talk myself out of this deep fog. So enjoy the ramblings of a now 38 year old female who is not entirely sure what she wants out of life or what her true purpose is for life. Career, husband, car, house don't seem to be the fulfill what we dreamed as when I was a kid of the perfect life. Fears of every day life now create a worry environment that I think everything is so wrong....but is it. Not really. Then why can't I see that or truly believe that it's ok. I am ok. I can make it through this time in my life. I have been working on this for over a year now. Between a counselor and now a physiologist -- the drugs scare me but I think are working. I am still trying to be in control of everything but learning to let somethings go. You might ask what has a control freak actually let go...well for one I'm actually asking for help from friends, acquaintances, and even my husband. But the biggest thing I now realize I don't need to do is to myself. I don't feel the need to be punished when I fail.
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